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Hi!

A few weeks ago, a friend of mine suggested I order a book titled "Calling in the One" by Katherine Woodward Thomas.


On first impression, you'd think, "Wow, so are you planning on calling in your one?" And can it even be done?! *cue sceptical looks* 
Wait, wait, soulmates...? Do they even exist...?


I do believe in soulmates, yes, and when my friend mentioned she was reading this book and following it as a personal project/course, rather than being sceptical, I was more intrigued...  


What would such a "course" entail? Well, having read reviews, as well as reading through the first chapter, the goal of this book is to transform you, to allow you to become the very best that you can be in order for you to meet your soulmate. 


Now, leave aside the whole concept of "soulmates" for a moment. Inner transformation? Spirituality? Reflection? All right up my street.


So, as I promised a friend, I plan on recording all of my thoughts and reflections on each of these lessons (It's split into seven blocks of seven lessons, meaning it'll take me seven weeks to complete the course).


So stay tuned to read some pretty deep thoughts, a lot of stuff that you may not know about me (as yet), random babble, and plenty of crazy humour that most likely won't make sense to you ;)


Until tomorrow, and with all my love xxx


P.S.


Scratch that... I might as well throw in the latest updates on my life:


If you don't know me, OR if you do, but have been living in a bubble far, FAR away (or we just haven't been in touch... sorry... you know how I am!), I've just completed a year of studying AS and A2 English Literature combined in a year. The university I'd like to attend requires an A, which is what I'm aiming for *crosses fingers, toes... you name it*


Now, my father suggested a few weeks back that I email the Admission Tutor asking her to take my application, as a whole, into account (the fact that I studied two years worth of content in a year, the fact that I dropped out of a degree to pursue my passion, yada yada). Which I did, to which she sent a lovely response back, saying that she remembers me from allll the way back when I was deciding whether or not to do the great big drop out. Well, okay... you can't "do" a drop out, but you understand what I mean, right?


That, and that she's been interested in my application, and that she was keeping her fingers crossed for me for August.


So both myself and my Dad are sat there thinking, "what a pleasant reply", and me typically very touched. I'm assuming that's the end of that, until August 19th. I think it's the 19th. Oh, crap... I'll have to check.... Anyway, anyway, anyway:


Evidently not.


A week later, my father tells me to reply, telling her that I had entered a worldwide international competition, and won, having my entry (which was an essay on spiritual topic) published in a book.


I do understand his reasoning, I do. But to appear as if I'm begging even before results have been published? It'd be fine, if it weren't for him wanting me to actually attach the essay for her to read. And the essay... it's good, because of the content, but the English itself? I wouldn't say it's amazing.


Bleurgh. I'm not one to suck up, or beg, perhaps because I have a big ego. But... this makes me feel really uncomfortable. Attaching the essay is a no-no. Does not make me feel good.


I'm not liking the slight showing off that this appears to me as being, yet looking at The Apprentice... well, let's just say I could never survive that show.  The majority of people will not only brag excessively about their talents (understandable, if they're fighting to remain on the show at the expense of another candidate), but they then go on to explain why they are better than other people on the said show. What right do they have to do that?


And ultimately, are we not all connected as a society? Sometimes, I look at the world, and I see it as portrayed as dog-eat-dog. What happened to caring about a person's welfare simply out of love for them, because you recognise that they are the same as you; they are God's creation, and share your essence? 


Bleurgh. And bleurgh again. I feel sad seeing it all.
But anyway... That's the decision. No essay attached.


Now, I don't think that covers all that's classed as an "update", but... I need sleep. So, hopefully until tomorrow: Ciao!