"My life is full of nothing but beauty"

In case you were wondering, I *did* wake up on time for today's interview day. (Yay me!)


It was... interesting, really. It consisted of quite a long talk at the beginning, introducing Nandos, the company etc etc... It seems that they treat their employees very well in comparison to other places like... oh, I dunno: KFC?! They talked about the team being a family, and considering I wasn't even interviewed for my job at KFC (pretty much just told what my job would entail, and given details of training), I was impressed by the layout and organisation of the day; twas held at a hotel, and the staff clearly were very passionate about the company.


We were then split into groups of about ten (there were about sixty people who were screened out of an initial 180 people... I feel proud. And I realise it really doesn't take too much to make me happy =)), and were assigned tasks of a) building a paper tower (we named ours the "Leaning Tower of Paper", so as you can gather, it didn't go amazingly) and b) coming up with a jingle, which would be judged by the "X Factor Panel". These tasks really took me back to my school days, in having to work together and contribute towards practical tasks. Cue some nostalgia.


I was reflecting on it all earlier, though, and it helped me in gaining more clarity on the sort of person I am. I've already known it, but... I'm *very* sensitive to and in tune with others' feelings, and the energy they give out. 
One girl, for example... it was her responsibility to write down the lyrics for our "jingle", and when I suggested changes to help it to "flow" better, her whole demeanour gave me tell tale signs that she wasn't too happy, which gave me a sense of insecurity on her part (she'd been the one to come up with those lines). And I felt bad for her; wanted to tell her not to take it to heart. But I could tell, her pride would've prevented her from admitting that she didn't like it, had I asked her.


As as an Aries, I'm meant to be a natural born leader, which is not the case. Yes, I'm headstrong and stubborn, competitive when it comes to things I care about, and I hate being told what to do (so... egotistical, too... ), but my personality is predominantly that of a Pisces. Mellow, compassionate, understanding, feelings orientated... which I know is due to me being a cusp. (If you don't know what it means to be a cusp, google it ;))


So, I would rather have people working together in harmony, exerting a positive vibe as a whole, rather than telling people what to do. And because I hate being told what to do, I hate asking others what to do. ... interesting.


I came home after, with a pounding headache and sore eyes, and a little shaky, as I've been having nightmares recently. *looks confused* I don't understand it, as usually my "nightmares" can't even be classed as such: they're just freaky, and don't make much sense!


Eitherway, I'm writing this at 11:46 pm, so let's hope that after this, I can sleep without any freaky-scary dreams. I need to ask the dream guy dude up there to gimme a break, as I'm a complete grouch when I don't get enough sleep. Nowhere near as bad as my sister (I remember trying to drag her out of bed a few days ago, when I asked her if she was "going to wake up", she yelled in the negative, to which after some persistent leg-yanking by me, she accused me of "stealing her clothes". I know... it didn't make any sense to me, and neither to her when I laughingly told her later on! She is an absolute nightmare to wake up...), but I'm usually an open book. So you can tell if I'm, sleep deprived from my face. And it's the worst mood to try and wind me up in. when sleep deprived, bug me at your own peril. Don't say I didn't warn you.


So, so, SOOO... two lessons today:


The first discusses the idea of "loving for loves sake", and that rather than wishing to manifest a soulmate due to fear


(Fear of being alone
Fear that life will pass you by etc


As the saying goes, "What you resist, persists")


To choose certain "Essence qualities" to act as your foundation of love. 


For example, you may wish to anchor yourself in Healing and Courage as you open yourself to love if you've been deeply betrayed in the past.


It asks the reader to read through a list of qualities, to close their eyes, and to go within their heart and to see which qualities speak to them the most. Then, to write out statements of affirmation for each, to ground and anchor them in that quality.


Here are mine, with the affirmations (I'm tired, but once again, no copy and paste ;)):


Compassion
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me
My heart is full of compassion for myself and those around me


Gratitude


I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with
I show gratitude for all that I am blessed with


Trust


I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely
I trust myself, my intuition completely


Beauty


My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty
My life is full of nothing but beauty


Freedom


I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please
I have the freedom to do as I please


Unconditional love


I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am
I love myself unconditionally for all I am




Oklidokli, so the next lesson talks about how people are under the illusion that  their desires are mutually exclusive when seeking to meet the "right person". That we have to make certain sacrifices in order for it to happen. However, it is important that a person cultivates a larger vision for themselves; a vision that allows them to have all they want, rather than only one part of what is possible.


It asks the reader to write down their goals, and then to make a collage based on this, using pictures which could be associated with, or respresent, each dream or goal.


I'll do the collage at some point (Agnus says pinky promise!), but for now, here are my goals:


To achieve an A in my English Literature A Level
To study English and History at Leicester University
To achieve a first in my degree
To earn extra money by working part time at Nandos, or a batter paid job, throughout university
To be hired my a magazine company and write articles on spirituality and/or psychology
To become an English teacher
To meet my soulmate
To have children
To help in ensuring my parents are happy as they grow older
To learn more about spirituality and religion
To gain a deeper understanding of people
To trust myself
To become more comfortable with my feelings, and in expressing them


I'll probably add more and more to the above list =)


In the meantime, until tomorrow, and with all my love xxx